I’ve always loved to write, and have kept a journal on and off pretty much since I was a kid. A word of warning, I don’t write what is neat, polished and socially acceptable. I don’t write what I think people want to hear. I write what is real and raw. If some resonates with you, then we share a moment of humanity together, which is why I’m writing. I would love to have people relate to me in some way, to tell me that despite all the wierdness, quirkiness and abnormalness of my upbringing and current situation, that you too can relate. Being super shy, I’ve always loved people and have been fascinated by social interaction, but I’ve never had a best friend, close friends, or…. most recently, friends at all. So hopefully there is something here that resonates with you… my reader, because this is my way of feeling connected to the outer world.
So, to dive right in. My sister Thalia has been teaching me over the last year about the concept of manifesting. Mani-what? I really thought Thalia went over the edge when she first started telling me about this. She and I watched some Abraham Hicks videos together last fall, and Thalia told me that whatever came to me in life was a result of my own creation. That I had thrown out a boomerang and it was just simply coming back to me. If I said something she construed as negative, she would say, “You are throwing your boomerang!” I had no clue what she was saying, but I assumed it wasn’t good to throw my boomerang. Or maybe I wasn’t throwing it the right way? Her sports related metaphor went right over my head, right where any sports related reference would go. We would be cooking dinner, and she would say, “Now Gumpie, thoughts become things. You know that, right?” I will let it slide that Gumpie is indeed one of my nicknames. T would also tell me, “You create your own reality.” Last year I thought T was off her rocker, but harmless. I indulged her ideas, but I didn’t understand what she was talking about.
Fast forward over a year’s time and somehow, just like my sister did, and just like the proverbial Alice did, I too fell into the rabbit hole. I didn’t even know I fell into it. And this rabbit hole doesn’t even have a name right now. Should it? My perception of the world, people and life has been flipped upside down and shaken so that a shit load of most of my beliefs have fallen out, completely obsolete. And my mind has been left lighter, clearer, happier! I guess it took about about a year and a half to two years for this process to really kick into gear. I don’t even know that I asked for this or knew it was happening, but I was tired of bullshit around me. The process has been slightly torturous. But irrisistable and enticing as it was painful. But enough about that. I was going to share how my sister created her first big manifestation.
I should pause here to share that my sister Thalia has had an interesting time of relationships. Unfortunately, she has been abused by men during her dating experiences since she began dating. She has attracted these abusive men to herself because she believed in her subconscious that she was worthless, due to her growing up with an abusive father. Oh yes, we shared the same father. But my stories come later. So T got out of an 11 or 12 year abusive relationship with the father of her daughter. And then fell into innumerable scrapes with men on and off. I used to coach her, and was shocked that she attracted the biggest loosers ever, but she was doe-eyed over them. The worse they treated her, the more infatuated she would be.
However, last month Thalia called to tell me about this amazing man she met. He was everything and more that she had on her list. For the sake of details, here we go. He was Lebanese like she drools over, he was very wealthy, his company flew him on a private jet, he lived in Switzerland, Austria, and Lebanon, was never married, no kids, was sensitive and kind, had a pet owl and a dog that ‘spoke’ to him, had an NDE, believed in past lives, was open minded and well travelled and…. really liked her. He was going to take her to Austria to live in his home, and was flying her out to see my family for New Year’s Day. I was thrilled, so so thrilled for my sister. I was wallking on clouds after she told me. This was a huge manifestation for her! I told her I was in the process of manifesting, too. She asked me what I had manifested, and I said nothing had appeared yet, I was just laying the ground work through my thoughts.
This is a huge change for her. If she shake things up this much, I can too. I am in the process of manifesting some things, and I’ve already manifested one big thing. But that’s for another post.